Tomorrow is another big day in the lives of the Powell family. Brooks has to have a procedure done as a result of a complication shortly after birth. Everything should go smoothly it is just scary as parents for our tiny little guy to have to be going through what he is! It seems like all around me everyone is having struggles, not your everyday, non-life altering struggles, but cancer treatment, family medical concerns, family struggles. However, each of us is strong in our faith and unwavering and that is what will get us through and to the end of the darkness that seems to be engulfing our path. God won't leave us he will lead us!
I wish so badly that I could make things easier for Brooks, take away his struggles, his pain and make them mine. I wish that I was still pregnant and we didn't to be going through all of these hard times, the worry, waiting and unanswered questions. There are so many unknowns and its hard to swallow at times. I have had moments where I want to breakdown, but I stay strong. I CAN do this, I WILL do this. I will be an example of strength, faith, love, devotion. I will get my family through this because that's what I know how to do, is push through, not give up, be positive, find the bright side.
As Christmas nears and the uncertainty of when our family will all be under the same roof I can't help but feel so many emotions. I'm scared not to have nurses at home, what kind of special care (if any) will they need, what kind of extra equipment will we bring home, who will watch them when I have to go back to work, how much is this going to cost, how is Oliver going to handle all the changes..... Quite simply I experience some level of fear, and anxiety about it all but what calms me is this:
Philippians4:6-7
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
AMEN
Well we are almost home from our basketball trip to Hannibal, It's going to get better, no one said it would be easy! NEver lose faith and never give up!
LUB YOU ALL
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